omg 8 and no blog!

Well i don’t know what is happening to me hahaha its 8:00 and close to bed and i have not dropped some random stuff in everyones lap.. hmm I’m slipping. Well today was just.. normal. I made up 3 different cookies. chocolate chip, oatmeal and coconut macrons … i love coconut!
i am filling all.. blah.. I’m not sick, maybe its the getting dark at 4 sigh. i did not make it to the fire station today i will have to tomorrow, i just could not get my self to go outside.
mmm my 10 yr olds friend called tonight and invited him to Wednesday bible class. I was thrilled and asked him what church they attend.. CROSSROADS! the one i just became a member too i have been wanting to get him involved in the Wednesday class but just have not done it… its great how this works out I may have to ask if they will take him every Wednesday .. well we will see how this one goes.

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do you remember why god gave us rainbows? yup after he flooded the earth and.. you know killed all of us for being horrible wicked people … … he made a pact with noah and all the living things of the earth that he would never again do such a thing and put a rainbow after the rain to always have a reminder to us and to him.

how much must he have been angry at us? disappointed in us? his creations turning so BAD! his children so evil! so much so that he wanted to destroy all of it, the people the animals, the planet. I think its a really good thing that normal parents don’t have that kind of power!! it makes me sad to think about it though… that we continue to bring god to this angry place… time and time again. he flooded us and killed all but noah and his family and trusted that we would be pure after this… but we were not. next thing i read is the story that i remember from when i was young. were the people united to build a city and a tower high enough to reach god, and he seen this and new that they people were united and could do anything and so he scattered them and changed there languages.

i always remembered there being more to the story tho.. i seem to remember there being a lot more to most of them, i think it was because it was so long ago and in sunday school and we had stories and stuff about it that more content was added. But from the two or three chapters about this i don’t understand why he seen to scatter them. I mean its not like they COULD have gotten to him. I will re read it but i dont think it talked about them wanting to claim it.. I guess its a little more “less” then i remember and it really makes me think about it .. what it really might mean… or what i really am getting from it. I don’t see it as i did as a child now and its more… grey and confusing then when its “told” to you. Now i look at the bible and the stories and its like i am learning it all for the first time.

Its hard some times. I wonder many times why we are still here.. as a people. I think he would have been so with in his rights to just “poof” make it all go away.. you tried god you really did. you tried to take out citys that were the worst, tried to give us men to free us! YOU GAVE US YOUR SON! Yet, we return to are evil ways. We still turn from you!

Then i think…. wow we are not all bad tho, in times of need you SEE the love people have and how they really do come threw for each of us. they love… and gods love is love… but the evil seems so heaver.. and the need of others so big!

Have you ever woke up and thought , god i know you want me to help but.. were? what? there is just so MUCH! so many that are hungry, homeless, sad and lost. I don’t know were to start… or how to make a dent in it if i do help.. and i cant help them all!…. and then in the end.. you help no one?

I have.. been so much more open to hear god now. To fill the invisible pull tord something or away. the gentle ( or not so ) nudge to turn to a sertin page? I have given everything back into gods hands to set it all straight, to send me back on the road he wants to see me on. I know he will because i see it and fill it already.. but i am afraid a little ( AND I KNOW i should not be! ) and i know i will not stop what ever the changes are that i fear will happen… but im still worried he will take what i so do not want to lose. But i will not fight the current. I have gotten on this boat and thrown out the oars. and i am ashamed to say that yes god.. i am afraid of what you must do to take me back on my road, but i trust you to take me there.

100 things i love

thought this might help to calm me

100 things i love ~

1. God
2. Keith ( son )
3. Daniel ( son )
4. Emily ( daughter )
5. david ( husband )
6. Laura ( mom )
7. michelle ( sister in law )
8. jason ( brother )
9. butter flys
10. rainbows
11. the smell of rain on a hot day
12. the fill of a strong wind blowing over me
13. To stand in a july storm with a down pore of rain and a blustering of wind all around me, it makes me fill cleaned and renewed.
14. warm summer days with a cool breeze laying under a tree with the fill of cool grass under me and the wind over me.
15. in autem to watch the leaves falling from the trees and the wind picking them up and blowing them. Its like a dance and so beautiful
16. in winter to wake to a perfect whiteness outside just before the sun is up and its quite and peaceful and nothing has been touched.
17. a huge bath tub full of bubbles and candles and yummy smells and soft music and no one needing you for an hr!
18. the fill of the warm water in a shower poring down my body. the heat and the sensation. i could stand there until the water gets cold just enjoying the filling.
19. music , there is a form for every mood, every person every thought every need
20. baking. this is a new one and not sure why really.
21. having someone to bake for!
22. the troops in are military who are so brave and strong that they voleenter them selfs up to protect us all
23. that push come to shove more good people then bad people arise to help ! look at the fires in California or the tragedies in new Orleans. Such horrible times for those people and yet so so so many people gave and helped and volentered to help them out! these are the children of Christ! THIS is showing gods love!
24. camping as a child with my dad
25. being there to listen to someone in need. a stranger that just need to share it and get it off there chest
26.my children’s smiles
27. my children’s laughter
28. when my children hug me
29. when my children say i love you mommy
30. when my children figure out a problem on there own, that they are growing and learning.
31. when i am sick and my children come to me and want to help ME
32. i love that god gave me 3 of his children to love and care for
33. that god has forgiven me for being away from him and has welcomed me back to his family
34. coffee
35. chocolate
36.blogging
37. bendayho ( wow friend )
38. onie ( wow friend )
39. tyr ( wow friend )
40. izzle ( wow friend )
41. lil ( wow friend )
42. zj ( wow friend )
43. that even when i fill so alone there is always at least one person i can really turn to
44. that i am stronger then i think
45. that i have more love then i imagine
46. that i am loved more then i actually know
47. that i am an American
48. the smell of vanilla
49. the smell of cinnamon
50. clear nights that we can watch the planes fly to the moon ( that is were daniel says they are flying )
51. that kieths father is still protective of me ( shh don’t tell )
52. that david works a job he doesn’t like so he can provide security to us.
53. that i do not have to get up and take the bus in the cold mornings
54. that i can go to the part any time i want with my kids
55. my budget
56. frugal blogs!
57. contest blogs!
58. winning stuff!
59. giving stuff !
60. a strangers smile and good morning or god bless
61. Sunday service
62. that no mater how many times i hear the songs at service i am still moved buy them
63. that i had my mother to teach me to be strong
64. that i had my mother to teach me to trust again
65. that i had my mother to teach me that not all love is conditional
66. that my mother always turns to me
67. that my mother is my friend
68. that all the bad that i lived though, has shaped me into the women i see today and i would not undo it.
69. that i have learned life is about how you make it
70. that i can look at things threw another’s eyes
71. that god has never let me brake
72. that when i allow my self to look there is always something beautiful to see
73. that after 5 yrs david still emails me daily
74. that people trust me
75. watching clouds on a warm day
76. running in the sprinkler on hot days
78. hot coco after a cold day
79. home made bread
80. home made soup
81. when someone loves something i have made
82. thank you
83. please
84. back rubs
85. being held
86. felling safe
87. cuddling at night
88. having my face touched
89. being told i am loved
90. dean r. koonts ( book author )
91. laura hamilton ( book author )
92. filling warm from the sun on a cold day
93. laying on the floor with my kids watching spoung bob
94. listening to keiths story’s about pokeymen and yu gi oh
95. knowing that no matter what i will always have a place to go
96. pictures of nature
97. pictures of kittens
98. comedy videos
99. laughing
100… that you read this all the way to the end!
91.

What are you thankful for?

I Was getting my daily dose of Laura’s page and her hosted giveaways and came across this one. I first visited it because .. well they are giving away a 25 dollar gift card but her contest was to leave a comment on what you are thankful for.. It really had me thinking about what AM i thankful for? i don’t think we stop enough to think about this. We get so wrapped up in what we are not happy about, what needs to change, what we want that we don’t have.. and this time of year it only gets worse!

My perspectives have slowly been changing the last few months anyways, It helps that i found my way back to god and am really starting to fill a personal change inside myself in how i think and how i want to do things and i love it! This year for thanksgiving i will be doing it at are home. It gets hard because the little family that we have is torn between there own family’s, new family’s, the other persons family! No wonder people are stressed at the holidays! So i am offering to everyone to just bring who ever and they can celebrate with us if they want! I have had my husband ask his single friends at work if they need a place to have thanksgiving. I really just want make sure no one is alone that dose not have to be. It is such a small thing but .. some times the smallest thing can mean the most.

So anyway lol i tend to go off in what ever direction when I’m writing sorry back to the contest. So i left a comment there and realized that i couldn’t make a real list there or i would probable take the hole page up! So I wanted to share with everyone what i am thankful for and invite you to do the same

—— what i am thankful for——

1. Finding my way back to god
2. A husband that works his butt off so that i can stay home with are kids
that
3. That after a ..interesting childhood my mother was my rock and my hero.
4. for my oldest son who put my life on track and i believed keep me from so bad choices
5. My mother in law that loves us dearly
6. My sister in law ( that i can never compare up to ) inspires me and always forgives me
7. My brother ( whom i never see) for picking above wife !
8. For music, this week for casting crowns
9. To be an American and all the freedom that is ours
10. That all 3 of my children are healthy
11. That even tho i have falbymalogia it is not life threatening and is not arthritis like they thought
12. for the comfortable life we live.
13. That my mother never stopped telling me if i was doing the wrong thing ( even if i did not listen)
14. For my friends on wow that i need more then they need me
15. For Dave Ramsey’s radio show
16. For Dr. Laura’s radio show
15. For the endless Christian sites to help me when i need to hear the word
16. For who ever picked that first coffee bean and thought to EAT IT!
17. That my husbands work has such wonderful insurance, dental and vision coverage
18. For the “i love you” from any of my kids
19. For the ” are you ok mommy” if i cough what caring kids!
20. For the daily emails from my husband
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ok so 20 is a fun number lol. The things you are thankful may not seem huge to someone reading them but in your heart each on your list is important and an awesome gift to you. I would LOVE to hear from some of you and what you are thankful for today sorry i have no giveaway for it tho but if you want to follow the above link and enter hers you might win the card!!

Remember to tell them you love them

found this stumbling around. I think we can never have ENOUGH reminders! I don’t know why but we always get so wrapped up in are day to day, chore list, to do list, work.. sigh that the things that we will miss the most get pushed to the back. why is this? So we can spend more time with them later? What about right now! Some say all the laters will be used up and then what?

Mother

Author Unknown

After 21 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to take another woman out to dinner and a movie. She said, “I love you, but I know this other woman loves you and would love to spend some time with you.”As he maneuvered his walker to the elevator, I provided a visual description of his tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on his window.

The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my mother, who had been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally.

That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie. “What’s wrong, are you well,” she asked? My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news.

“I thought that it would be pleasant to spend some time with you,” I responded, “Just the two of us.” She thought about it for a moment, and then said, “I would like that very much.”

That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date. She waited in the door with her coat on. She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her last wedding anniversary. She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel’s.

“I told my friends that I was going to go out with my son, and they were impressed,” she said, as she got into the car. “They can’t wait to hear about our meeting.”

We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant, was very nice and cozy. My mother took my arm as if she were the First Lady. After we sat down, I had to read the menu. Her eyes could only read large print.

Half way through the entries, I lifted my eyes and saw Mom sitting there staring at me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips. “It was I who used to have to read the menu when you were small,” she said.

“Then it’s time that you relax and let me return the favor,” I responded.

During the dinner, we had an agreeable conversation—nothing extra-ordinary but catching up on recent events of each other’s life. We talked so much that we missed the movie. As we arrived at her house later, she said, “I’ll go out with you again, but only if you let me invite you.”

I agreed.

“How was your dinner date?” asked my wife when I got home.

“Very nice; much more so than I could have imagined,” I answered.

A few days later, my mother died of a massive heart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn’t have a chance to do anything for her.

Some time later, I received an envelope with a copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place mother and I had dined. An attached note said:

“I paid this bill in advance. I wasn’t sure that I could be there; but nevertheless, I paid for two plates–one for you and the other for your wife. You will never know what that night meant for me. I love you son.”

At that moment, I understood the importance of saying “I LOVE YOU” in time and to give our loved ones the time that they deserve.

Nothing in life is more important than your family. Give them the time they deserve, because these things cannot be put off till “some other time.”

Todays Insperation

i stole this from a stumbled site and its wonderful

The Daffodil Principle

Several times my daughter had telephoned to say, “Mother, you must come see the daffodils before they are over.” I wanted to go, but it was a two-hour drive from Laguna to Lake Arrowhead.

“I will come next Tuesday, ” I promised, a little reluctantly, on her third call.

Next Tuesday dawned cold and rainy. Still, I had promised, and so I drove there. When I finally walked into Carolyn’s house and hugged and greeted my grandchildren, I said, “Forget the daffodils, Carolyn! The road is invisible in the clouds and fog, and there is nothing in the world except you and these children that I want to see bad enough to drive another inch!”

My daughter smiled calmly and said, “We drive in this all the time, Mother.”

“Well, you won’t get me back on the road until it clears, and then I’m heading for home!” I assured her.

“I was hoping you’d take me over to the garage to pick up my car.”

“How far will we have to drive?”

“Just a few blocks,” Carolyn said. “I’ll drive. I’m used to this.”

After several minutes, I had to ask, “Where are we going? This isn’t the way to the garage!”

“We’re going to my garage the long way,” Carolyn smiled, “by way of the daffodils.”

“Carolyn,” I said sternly, “please turn around.”

“It’s all right, Mother, I promise. You will never forgive yourself if you miss this experience.”

After about twenty minutes, we turned onto a small gravel road and I saw a small church. On the far side of the church, I saw a hand-lettered sign that said, “Daffodil Garden.”

We got out of the car and each took a child’s hand, and I followed Carolyn down the path. Then, we turned a corner of the path, and I looked up and gasped. Before me lay the most glorious sight. It looked as though someone had taken a great vat of gold and poured it down over the mountain peak and slopes. The flowers were planted in majestic, swirling patterns-great ribbons and swaths of deep orange, white, lemon yellow, salmon pink, saffron, and butter yellow. Each different-colored variety was planted as a group so that it swirled and flowed like its own river with its own unique hue. There were five acres of flowers.

“But who has done this?” I asked Carolyn.

“It’s just one woman,” Carolyn answered. “She lives on the property. That’s her home.”

Carolyn pointed to a well kept A-frame house that looked small and modest in the midst of all that glory. We walked up to the house. On the patio, we saw a poster. “Answers to the Questions I Know You Are Asking” was the headline.

The first answer was a simple one.”50,000 bulbs,” it read. The second answer was, “One at a time, by one woman. Two hands, two feet, and very little brain.” The third answer was, “Began in 1958.”

There it was, The Daffodil Principle. For me, that moment was a life-changing experience. I thought of this woman whom I had never met, who, more than forty years before, had begun ~ one bulb at a time ~ to bring her vision of beauty and joy to an obscure mountain top. Still, just planting one bulb at a time, year after year, had changed the world. This unknown woman had forever changed the world in which she lived. She had created something of ineffable (indescribable) magnificence, beauty, and inspiration.

The principle her daffodil garden taught is one of the greatest principles of celebration. That is, learning to move toward our goals and desires one step at a time ~ often just one baby-step at a time ~ and learning to love the doing, learning to use the accumulation of time. When we multiply tiny pieces of time with small increments of daily effort, we too will find we can accomplish magnificent things. We can change the world.

“It makes me sad in a way,” I admitted to Carolyn. “What might I have accomplished if I had thought of a wonderful goal thirty-five or forty years ago and had worked away at it ‘one bulb at a time’ through all those years. Just think what I might have been able to achieve!”

My daughter summed up the message of the day in her usual direct way. “Start tomorrow,” she said.

It’s so pointless to think of the lost hours of yesterdays. The way to make learning a lesson of celebration instead of a cause for regret is to only ask, “How can I put this to use today?”

~ Author Unknown ~

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren’t old enough and we’ll be more content when they are. After that, we’re frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage.

We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, when we are able to go on a nice vacation, or when we retire. The truth is there’s no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It’s best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.

Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with . . . and remember that time waits for no one.

So, stop waiting . . .
Until your car or home is paid off
Until you get a new car or home
Until your kids leave the house
Until you go back to school
Until you finish school
Until you lose 10 lbs.
Until you gain 10 lbs.
Until you get married
Until you get a divorce
Until you have kids
Until you retire
Until summer
Until spring
Until winter
Until fall
Until you die

There is no better time than right now to be happy.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So work like you don’t need money,
Love like you’ve never been hurt,
And dance like no one’s watching.