another day, another sprout!

so my compost is coming along nice and easy.. i hope that does not jinx me..  but i seem to have aphids living in it. Now i had wondered about this possibility when starting it but i had seen nothing on any of the sites i read for starting a compost pile or maintaining it. The aphids love are kitchen tho and tick me off to no end..sigh BUT they are free to live outside if they please! … until spring that is or they will eat all my new plants i have envisioned of planting! I’ll be googling some more on this to see if its something i need to do something about, i would imagine as it brakes down and the COLD they will fly away, if not im not above BUYING some lady bugs!

this pic was a few days ago and its not as dry as it looks and BEFORE the aphids seemed to have moved in. i wet it down some more today hopeing to ..i dont know drown them.. lol i dont think it works that way tho.

Well i keep the seeds from a red bell pepper from the store and planted some on 10-21 and on 10-26 one pellet had 3 little shoots coming up! wow.. ill have to pull two of them just to give one room to grow but i wnat to wait to see what one might be the best.  This was just a test for me to see if they WOULD sprout off or not… my cucumber ones did not and after reading found out i need actually harvested seeds for replanting because they must mature way past the eating stage…. so now that they have started HELL ill let them grow and see just what becomes of them. I think this is all great learning for me so come spring i will have a better idea of what im doing and how long i need to start my seedlings to go outside when the last frost has past.

… I just wish my basil looked better its leaves are not growing! the stems continue to grow up but the leaves are not getting bigger its making me very sad. Now i really dont have any idea when i planted it because i didnt write it down but its more then a month because the baby tomatos are almost that old .. maybe two months.. i should read up on it and see what the harvest time actually is LOL that would be the smart thing hu

I planted some pansies seeds .. i love those pretty little flowers so much! I have not read up on them like i should, but i seen the seeds on sale and just had to have them. Since my husband is wanting more house plants along with my new found gardening obsession i might as well go all out and look at the flowers that i love to but i felt a waste of space or time before… now I’m thinking of a cottage garden .. they are so very pretty and peacefully and i wonder what i could do with the front walk area with pretty, fragrant plants! …am i just spreading my self to thin ? lol oh well ill just learn about every thing i see and find the stuff i want to grow and see what happens  /shrug worse that will happen is stuff starts to die! and then i get to start over again

My parents are on the MOVE~! They have been working for this RV park for a year in Corpus Christie and got the joy of experienced THREE hurricanes..sigh..one which they had to evacuate from!!!! Now they are on there way to Dallas for a couple of days to see my brother who is huddled in a trash trailer until his house sells and the family moves up with him . We all hope and pry that is very soon. Then they are up to a RV camp …err in the corner of .. California, Nevada and Arizona just tucked into that bottom corner. they will be able to relax, visit her brother in cal, her son in Nevada, and go play in Reno! then when spring rolls around she will come back here to visit for a bit then they will head for new adventures.   ..(( I love pictures!))..

Poor hubby, in the last two weeks hes had 10 teeth pulled out! he is working out a dental plan with his dentist. They will be removing all his upper teeth and giving him a partial. Thank goodness this is the last of it tell the new year and starting of the new insurance payment roll over. then they will do the hard part of it. I think the plan is to take a week off of work when he has the top pulled so he can heal up at home. i don’t know how long before they can start fitting him for the partials tho…  AND THIS is what he will look like all week!!!!!

I have a meeting with the volunteer coordinator ( i think this is who it is ) Saturday at noon so that i can hopefully start volunteering soon! hubby wants me to work at the women and child shelter over here by us but i have to meet the guy at the downtown men’s shelter, i know hubby is uncomfortable with this but its during the day and he is being so so so nice to see me on a Saturday! I have been trying to work it out the last week and a 1/2 on how to get there during the week to see him. So this was a prayer answered and a fasting i didn’t have to complete to get an answer , thank you lord! I have never fasted before but i have read up on it and why people fast and was willing to fast this day to show god i was willing to make a small suffering to show him how dedicated i was to this and just needed help finding the way to make it happen. that morning he gave me the answer and saved me from my self imposed suffering. isn’t god great?\

Ok off to make dinner ! easy makens for the next few days since hubby cant eat!

god bless.

Fasting .. what is it and what does it mean to us?

Here is a subject that i have always secretly wondered about. you hear about it here and there in the bible but i have never had a church i attended go deep into it

.. why do people fast..what do you when you fast.. what was the reason behind it.. when in the right time..the wrong time.. why does god ask us to fast…

i assumed that it was mainly tragedy’s that sent people scrambling to god giving up food to ask for help.. or religious higher ups showing ..us? dedication to god.. but i never digged to far into it partly.. selfish reasons. what if the bible demands we fast! what if I’m not ready? i don’t know how.. i don’t know what to do.. …… it was some of the same questions i had about how to pry to god. That may sound odd to allot of people but i was never really taught “how” to pry and why  and a lot of the time it sounded fake or hypocritical to me when i “tried” .. but i searched for that answer because i needed desperately to know how to talk to god, how to be close to him.. and prayer is you way in. its your daily talks with god. to give thanks and praise and share your strugles with him and ask for help. i found there is no “right” way or wrong way, you just talk to him. we have a relationship with god.. he use to walk in the garden with adem and talk to him.. i believe he wants that kind of closeness with each of his children. so daily we talk to him..

… i got side tracked .. fasting.. i found a great site that did all the work for me and researched it. they explain very nicely all the questions i had and i understand more then before even tho i have no personal experience to go with it yet. Fasting has always been a nagging idea in the back of my mind. i am sure that means that god fully intends me to understand it and use it when its appropriate.  The question always was when IS it appropriate?  i think i understand now, it times of struggle, major changes..times when you strive to know the way god would have you walk but you are unclear of it. when you are morning and need god wholly to make it. It is a way to more clearly connect with the lord and to show him.. look lord i need nothing but you! You are my first and my last and everything in between and i am willing to give up even my most primal needs of survival to seek out your ways, because i have faith that you will come to me and keep my safe even for my physical discomfort..

deep… scary… after reading this site and seeing the real personal reasons .. and it is personal, there are no commandments to fast but it is talked about in the bible with a tone that you “will” fast. but when and why is between you and god. I sure wish that this had been more discussed and understood. I know there are many times in my life that i needed this kind of solitude and personal show of faith to god..

you should also remember that this is something between “you and god” and not the world. you are not suppose to go around declaring to the world I AM FASTING! because that is not what god wants of us. just like he asks us to go into are rooms and close the door to pry to him we should also quietly fast so that it does not become a show of “righteousness” instead of personal searching time for you with the lord.

here is the site and a much better explination and answers to my questions.

seek and you shall find.. every time i have a questions about the lord and what he wants of me i am led to the answers. never be discuraged the lord will show you the way.

god bless

the lords blessings are abundant!

once again my roaming has lead me to a wonderful site full of life’s hard ships and gods awesome love and blessings!i first visited blackberry blessings which lead me to I will learn to fly is such a inspiration to us that follow Christ, she has fallen on hard times and how the lord has steeped up to provide and protect them in so much! Its …awe striking to read threw her post and realized just how good god is and how loved we are. I have only read a hand full of what she has posted and already i am .. moved and renewed buy what god has done for her family. I would love for all of you to hope over and visit her, read threw a few of her blessings and tell me you are not moved my gods love and protection for his children!

Daily Grace , The little things

I picked this book up at Ross about a week ago and read the first one today. i sure wish i had a scanner now tho lol because i would like to touch on it but you have not read it so i have to type it for you! omgosh!

~~~~~ The Little Things In Life

Every day of my life was recorded in your book… before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me O god.. Psalm 139:16-17

So many times it is the little things that drive us crazy. Big problems we can handle but the minor inconveniences of day to day life can get under our skin! It’s easy to get angry or frustrated when things go wrong: when we lose our car keys or hit every red light on the way to work, But sometimes, God uses the little things of our lives to place us right where He wants us to be.

After the tragedy on September 11, the head of security of the Twin Towers related amazing stories about those who should have been there that fateful day but weren’t all of their stories had to do with the “little things” of life.

One man was late because it was his turn to bring the doughnuts. One women’s alarm clock didn’t go off. One missed the bus. One spilled food on her clothes at the last minute adn had to take time to change. Anther’s car wouldn’t start. And one person couldn’t get a taxi.

Perhaps the most amazing was the man who put on a new pair of shoes that morning and headed in to work, only to developed a blister on his foot on the way. Because he stopped at a drugstore to buy a band-aid for his foot, he is alive today.

God is concerned about every detail of your life0even the little things! So the next time you get stuck in traffic- or even get a blister on your toe-remember that god continued to look out for you. Be thankful every day for the gift of life you have been given and for the wonderful, loving god who cares for you and guides your steps throughout the day. ~~~~~~

so many thoughts and emotions and .. road to travel after reading this. one that will be asked is ..

why those few and not all of them if god can do such things! why save 100 when a 1000 others will die!… i have no real answer only what i think is right and what the bible tells us.. with the garden we were given free will and we ate from the forbidden tree.. which gave us the knowledge of right and wrong.. then Satan was thrown from heaven for wanting to be above god. Satan reins on earth and is determined to take as many souls as he can from god. We people have the chose to follow him or refuse him but sadly even if you refuse him Satan can still use his people to hurt you. All because of free will, people chose to fly a plane into the twin towers and kill so many people. Yes god is great and could have with a thought halted the plane in mid air. could have emptied the building so no one was there.. but this is not the way he has allowed US his children to live. we have since the beginning done as we wanted and those that chose to do bad in the end can affect the lives of those who follow god, But that is not to say that god does not put his foot in and make other things happen to counter Satan…. like the people that were saved. the little things that diverted them just long enough to stay away from the danger.. and I’m sure they were cursing the whole way that they were going to be late and why does all the bad things happen to them! then… bam .. they realize that it didn’t happen to them but they were saved.. i pray that those that were “saved” from that realized that god guided them that day to protect them… i have no idea of everyone saved was already christian and and daily prayed for the lord to protect them and show them the path to walk .. or if so many Christians died that day.. we can not expect god to stop the bad that we ourselves have created here on earth.

Perhaps god had unfinished plans for those that he saved, They still have lives to touch.. lessons to learn.. they were unsaved but god knew that he could still reach there heart. i don’t know, this is the age old question and i know that it pains god to lose any child that is not saved in Christ because then they are lost to him forever.

It also make me stop and think about all the little inconvenient things that happen to me daily and how i fume over stuff.. and makes you actually appreciate it in THIS light.. how many times might you have been diverted from danger because you couldn’t find something? things did not go as planed and it took longer? there was a HUGE line at the store? … maybe your hitting every stop light gave you just enough time to miss that speeder who would have hit you? or the drunk swerving around? who knows! who knows how many things god STOPS every day with those little things. We can never know because they can not be reported but i know god is tracking this because he knows us and loves us. God dose, i think what we allow him to do for us. He reaches down and dose what he can with the choices we have made and those around us make. I do want to believe that if you live a godly life and follow him and pray and praise him daily and trust him to keep you safe he will, but at the end of the day we all still must die right? We don’t know when or why god allows our times to come but what i do know is those that follow him will find a much better place when he calls us home. This is not are home, it is were we visit and prove to god that we love him and want to be with him. He made us to love him, just as the angles are made to love him and watch over us.

god bless.

23 minutes in hell ~ a book you must read

As i wrote here, the belief in Jesus is not all in faith but in reading are history! are wonderful Jesus was real and walked this earth Are lord god did not. He is the all knowing, creating, powerful father.. that is were your faith is. that even tho you don’t see him he IS here. He is talking to us and guiding us to live the life that will get us into heaven! Even when you don’t listen hes always there waiting.. waiting for you to open your heart to him, to be reborn in him.

god loves us and takes us JUST as we are, but loves us ENOUGH to help us change.

we are all sinners.. god does not say that one sinner is worse then the other.. i don’t remember ever reading.. a lier is less of a sinner then a murder. An adulteress is less a sinner then a robber.. WE view one as the lesser evil then the other…

well i ONLY lie! its not like i am hurting anyone.. we have laws set up to judge are crimes and the lvl that they come in at but GOD IS are final judge and he never said that liers will only spend ohhh 10 yrs in hell then come to heaven and murders will spend eternity! ALL SINNERS WILL SPEND ETERNITY IN HELL! …but… but… we are all sinners!!!!!

John 3:16
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

John 3:3
In reply Jesus declared, “I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again. “

Jesus was sent to us to die. He dies so that we could go to god when we finally opened are eyes and said OH GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE ALL THESE YEARS! We can go to god and be reborn in the blood of Jesus. We can except the holy spirit into are heart and learn the word so we can live a good and godly life so that when are short years are up here on earth we will spend all of eternity in heaven with are father and not in the pits of hell being punished and tortured for eternity… not only will it be murders and rapist… but liers and cheaters.. the lost who never let god in and thought they were just living a good life with out him.. normal every day ppl…all the people who have not embraced the lord and allowed him to change us into his making.

Yes.. i sound like one of those zellets that i use to roll my eyes at.. but know i understand why they yell on the corner at ppl to find Jesus before its to late.. can you imagine the pain god fills knowing so many of his children have softly been lead away from him by Satan and that even tho they were “good” people they will still be enslaved to Satan for eternity? OHHH THE HORROR! god does NOT want this… he never wanted this! THIS IS WHY he gave us Jesus! so that we will not have to face that as are eternity.

if you are a tettering person.. not sure one way or the other… or if your a good christian just trying to live gods words.. i suggest a book to you all..

23 Minutes in Hell by Wiese, Bill

this book really reminded me or the realness of hell. It is just not talked about anymore that its “real” but pushed back in are minds that its just a ..place.. something not to think of… but its real.. as real as the heaven we want so badly to go to!

when we have disconnected the idea of sex and.. children!

I come to respect and admire this women every time i pull up her site. shes a converted atheist to Catholic and struggling to find the way just like the rest of us that found are way back to are father. Her post today tho is one that sparks a lot of emotion in me.. and everyone im sure regardless of what side they stand on. she has been talking about abortion lately and wrote and article for America magazine one the subject. i wanted to drop a link here and hope find the time to visit her.

she is completely right in her thinking that today’s men and women have disconnected sex and .. children! and are shocked when one leads to the other. ..sigh i am not in the right place to really sit and go farther into how i fill aobut this so i leave you with her link .

god bless.

Happy Birthday!!

Well today july 3rd is my MOMS birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! they have been blessed this week from god and i could not be happier for them. They came in to some money that they have been fighting tooth and nail to receive for my dad. Well they finally realized they were going to one way or the other fork over some money lol and gave them a buy out amount.. and i think they are going to take it. Its a great moment for them at the point they are at, and answers a lot of prayers for them. what a great birthday present then to have god answer your prayer. continue to trust him and look for his answers in the right way to deal with it LOVE YOU!

MY birthday is tomorrow! YES the 4th! all those fireworks will be for /cough me LOL .. man… 32… it seems more shocking them my 30th.. I actually am starting to think.. oh god i have so little time to do the things you want of me now! 30 and what have i done? I JUST found god and his love and am JUST NOW teaching our children about him and i am so far behind… what is it he needs me to do? what is it im suppose to do … I am suppose to raise my children to be ready to lead a life walking with god, that is my only thing i can think of now that matters and i have waited so long..

I fear all that is happening in the world.. the hardships the sickness the demons that look like people. I fear for my family and there safety and want to protect them at all cost. for years .. before i found the love of god, i lived in fear each day of the “what ifs” that happened to other people every day. I had gotten so desperately afraid i could hardly leave my home or allow the children too.

One day i realized the fear.. it was from being away from god.. oh yes i had always knows of god. i was raised a Christian and learned the stories but i never felt .. the connection.. the love.. I never experienced it and it was so easy to drift away and learn about other religions and then wonder how mine could be the only.. or yours..or theres! how could they all be right or wrong? how can we all be going to hell for not believing one set religion. But threw it all i could never pray to any other god but god, i could never believe in many gods because i knew there was only one creater. but i could not make it pieces fit together. there were just so many questions and things i believed and things i KNEW were true how did it work together!

but the fear it started when i walked away from god and started pondering the questions. I no longer had a faith to put my back against and know that it would hold me up or protect me. there was nothing to hold me up inside, there was no safety outside myself, I DID believe that anyone who believed in SOMETHING was doing better then me because they had a faith to turn to when they were afraid of the world. I had lost mine and it took some time before i was willing to give up all my questions and turn back to god and say…

I need you so much it hurts, im so afraid i don’t know what to do. I can not keep going this way. I don’t know the answers i need but i cant keep you out anymore. Please free me, Please help me, Please love me like you say you do! I know jesus was a man, I know he died for me, I know hes knocking to my heart and I INVITE YOU IN! Make me whole again. wipe me clean and make me new. I am so lost and so scared… you said those who seek will find well here I AM SEEKING. oh please don’t leave me here…..

I have never experience gods love before this … like this.. EVERY QUESTION i had in my heart he has lead me to the answers. EVERY! When the devil whispers to me and makes me fear and dought and question the lord is there to count him with HIS TRUTH! OH it has been an … unbelievable journey so far and it will not be over until i am really in his arms in heaven. When the real fears of this world crowd in and are to loud and frightening i pray.. long and hard and i close my eyes and wrap my self in his robes.. oh in my mind hes so large! 50 feet tall in is thrown with his flowing white robes and i hide in the cruck of his arm under his sleeve and that is were i am safe… I could have keep the visual from you but we all need to have a visual of were are safe place is and here is mine, in the arms of the lord in heaven were i can cry and prey and know that he will hush the fears away, just like any other loving parent would. Here i am not a mother or a wife i am his child and i run to him when i am afraid.

They had wanted to give me pills when the fears got bad before i excepted Jesus in .. but i could not take them.. thank you lord for making me face it and find you again. now i don’t need one and i am learning to trust the lord to protect me and his children. I know bad things can happen.. and you know why? because we were given free will and some people chois to follow Lucifer and not god and they make the bad things happen and some times the good people simply get stuck in the middle of it.

i prey the prayer.. thy will be done on earth as it in in heaven…and then i ask to except his will as my own..and to forgive those that may do me harm because they truly do not know what they do. If they knew the love of the lord they would not be able to do such evils… its hard and i will not lie that it takes a great deal of prayer sometimes and faith building on my side.

well this is far from the blog i had in mind but there it is and were i am today. on my 32nd birthday i am walking with god and teaching my children to walk with him.. and hopefully teaching my husband to walk with him also. I am asking god on my birthday what it is he wants of me.. what am i suppose to do… until i am giving something ales i will worry only about raising the children he has given me and help them to fill his love so they will never fill alone when the world if scary.

god bless you all and if you made it this far on the blog thanks for indulging me

what is love

1 Corinthians 13 (New International Version)

New International Version (NIV)

Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society

1 Corinthians 13

Love

1If I speak in the tongues^[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,^[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

now if i could tape that on a stick and hang it off the top of my head so i had to look at it every day… i may think about the words and filings that i allow to come out of me. lord help me love like you love.

Unsure that Jesus was real?

Question: “What is the meaning of BC and AD (B.C. and A.D.)?”

Answer: It is commonly thought that BC stands for “before Christ” and AD stands for “after death.” This is only half correct. How could 1 B.C. have been “before Christ” and 1 A.D. been “after death”? BC does stand for “before Christ.” AD actually stands for the Latin phrase “anno domini” which means “in the year of our Lord.” The B.C. / A.D. dating system is not taught in the Bible. It actually was not fully implemented and accepted until several centuries after Jesus’ death.

It is interesting to note that the purpose of the BC / AD dating system was to make the birth of Jesus Christ the dividing point of world history. However, when the B.C. / A.D. system was being calculated, they actually made a mistake in pinpointing the year of Jesus’ birth. Scholars later discovered that Jesus was actually born in around 4-6 BC, not 0 AD. That is not the crucial issue. The birth, life, ministry, death, and resurrection of Christ are the “turning points” in world history. It is fitting, therefore, that Jesus Christ be the separation of “old” and “new.” BC was “before Christ” and since His birth, we have been living “in the year of our Lord.” Philippians 2:10-11, “That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.”

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how could the worlds time line be around a man that did not exist or do the works that the bible says he did if IT DID NOT HAPPEN!!! is the world wrong? was it one “believer” that lied and tricked all the world to make this time line and keep it that way tell today?

i am a believer in my lord Jesus. it is not in faith alone that you are saved ~~ it is in the belief of our own written history.. how can you not bend to the truth and turn to the lord who wants NOTHING but your love ? God loved us so much as his children that he send Jesus his one and only son to US to live and DIE a horrible death so that we could be saved in his blood of innocents SO THAT WE COULD make it to heaven and be with are father.

he has an open invitation of love for each and every human on this earth. All he is waiting for is for YOU to except that invitation! Throw open your heart and let HIM do the work! He wants to love you, he wants to bless you, he wants you to worship him! He will take you as you are right now today. No matter were you are in life. Even if Satan has you in his grips and has you doing the most evil things, you he wants the most! He wants you to come home and be loved and cleaned and blessed! He WASHES alway your sin and makes you new and pure in the love of christ! Do not let “what you have done” stop you from taking his invitations… please.. God is all about washing away your past so you can be REBORN in Christ! To live again and be the child you were always meant to be.

Please today let Christ in your heart. Let him work in you. It takes no effort for you to say YES LORD LOVE ME! Tell him you know he is the savior! Tell him you know he came to die for you..yes YOU. . you are who he died for.

if you want to read his word you can always go to http://www.biblegateway.com/ they give free bibles to those who need them. There is nothing to stop you from learning but Satan and your willingness to let him.

god bless you all. and i thank the lord for the words he has given me to write and ask him to bless the words that someone will find him threw them! blessed is our lord!

Prayer for our marrage

this is not one i made but one i found but is still a prayer i would like to repeat and i will share with you.

Dear Lord, We know that in our marriage we will face storms. Lord, I pray that the storms will draw us together, not divide us. I pray that in during any hardships, challenges, or stress that we face individually or as a couple, that we will come out the other side closer to one another and closer to You. Help us not to be anxious or fearful during a storm. Instead, let us stand firmly on Our Rock, with You, Lord, as our firm foundation. Let us have peace that passes human understanding, as we draw on Your supernatural strength. We know that You can bring good out of horrible situation. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.