what a good weekend!

oh it was so nice, i got to go x mass shopping ALONE! no kids , no kids, no kids… did i say no kids? ya my little /cough “angle” is driving me totally insane! Everything is a fight.. even the stuff she wants to do ?? i don’t know. i have no idea what to do with her or how to battle this! but that may be a story for another blog..

sooo i went and got the kids all there gifts and got david a bunch of stuff that he wanted but was not needed that we would spend the money on it. like his very special shampoo that smells sooo good but is like 13 dolors a bottle! lol he gets that once a year at x mass .

i did stop and get a hair cut WOOT that was nice and got myself 2 books that i had wanted for a long time ..well one the other is dean Koontz brand new book! the other is Nora Robertsons valley of silence. i read the 2nd in the serious already like.. god almost a yr ago and just always found other things to spend the money on then a book for me.

THEN sunday after food shopping ( i took the girl.. what was i thinking! ) my mom in law picked me up and we went to see I Legand with will smith. I think it was a great movie, it probable could have use a bit more here and there but lol it was still good. a few spots made me jump and of course like any of those moves made me think to hard about something like that ( maybe not exactly like that ) being passable!

It was a good weekend and i so needed it away from the kids. and i think my flare up is finally going away because im starting to fill better … less blah.. and i actually WANT to start baking agian! i picked up some magazine at winco with new recipes so im excited to get started again. It was been since thanksgiving that i have baked, my mind has been foggy and not right… i just have been off, i really hate when i get like that. I just want to stay inside, and dissaper into my game. I mean i really like being back to wow and my friends but i have also been escaping into it to get past this flare up also.

My brake outs on my hand have finally stopped and its starting to heal up, thank god. it looked NASTY and i hate for anyone to see it. But all and all I’m getting better. Starting to think about my workout again and getting modivated to start working on it again. GOOD news there tho. i have not gained one pound back that i have lost.. lol still sitting at 285.. thats still a big bummer but hay i still dropped 20 lbs and have changed my habits enough that just eating how ever and doing what ever i did not gain any back. That tells me that my very small baby steps work PERFECTLY! so that when i get in a frump and just cant worry about it and need my chocolate!!! i am not sabitasing myself. Needless to say im very happy with it.

Well i think that is good for now have a great day everyone and god bless you all

OH HOW I HAVE BEEN BLESSED

well god is showering me with blessings this year! I just won the $500 wish list from fire and ice jewlrey store! oh lord i have gotten favor from you this year thank you! the women in my life will be able to recive some very nice stuff this year! OH LOL i had 500 dollors worth of stuff i would have loved but how could i NOT spread this blessing to the ones i love!

may you all fill gods blessings in your life ! marry x mass

i think this is very clear …

{ PROVERBS 6:16 -19 }

16~ There are six things the LORD hates,

seven that are detestable to him:

17~ haughty eyes,

a lying tongue,

hands that shed innocent blood,

18~a heart that devises wicked schemes,

feet that are quick to rush into evil,

19~ a false witness who pours out lies

and a man who stirs up dissension among brothers.

OK i want this!

izzle get me this!

Dell Unveils Ultimate World of Warcraft Laptop

Dell has announced the XPS M1730 World of Warcraft Edition notebook PC, a special laptop tailored specifically for WoW fans. The computer will come pre-loaded with WoW and the expansion, The Burning Crusade. Gamers can choose artwork for either the Alliance or the Horde to adorn their system, along with original desktop art and screensavers. The package will also come with a special WoW backpack filled with other Warcraft-related goodies. Starting price for the laptop begins at $4,499. You can check out full details for the PC after the break.

Special XPS M1730 World of Warcraft content includes:

• Custom design featuring original art by Blizzard artists on LCD back, and Honor Badges on the wings
• World of Warcraft and World of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade™ pre-loaded on system, including the latest content updates
• Original desktop background artwork and screensavers

· A World of Warcraft-themed backpack that includes:

• • Retail box copies of World of Warcraft, World of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade, and the Warcraft ^® Battle Chest , which includes with Warcraft III: Reign of Chaos™ and Warcraft III: Frozen Throne™
  • Latest Brady Games strategy guides for World of Warcraft, The Burning Crusade, Warcraft III and The Frozen Throne
  • World of Warcraft DVD with a behind-the-scenes look at “The Making of WoW”

· A special Quest Envelope that ships separately with exclusive rare items:

• • A Golden Ticket allowing customers to receive a special custom FigurePrint based on the actual World of Warcraft character that they play. ^[i]
  • An Account Upgrade Certificate enabling the upgrade of a World of Warcraft account¹ to receive the Collector’s Edition pets from both the original World of Warcraft Collector’s Edition and the World of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade Collector’s Edition
  • A World of Warcraft Beta Club Card to enable customers to take part in upcoming public beta tests.¹

Starting at $4,499 (USD), the XPS M1730 World of Warcraft Edition system includes:

• Aggressive styling with backlit Honor Badges, touchpad and keyboard
• LightFX perimeter lighting for added immersion during game play

· Full-size keyboard with 10-key number pad to help navigate games

• AGEIA PhysX mobile processor and built-in Logitech® GamePanel LCD
• NVIDIA SLI graphics power and 512MB of dedicated video RAM with DirectX® 10 realism
• Optional over-clockable ^[ii] Intel®Extreme Edition Core™ 2 Duo processor, up to 3.4GHz
• Optional dual RAID 7,200 RPM hard drives for fast access or even faster access with an optional 64GB solid state drive
• Full HD 17-inch widescreen and available Blu-ray Disc™ to provide the ultimate mobile viewing experience

· 7ms average display response time ^[iii] to ensure quick overall system performance

• Complete wireless connectivity with built-in Optional Mobile Broadband, ^[iv] Wireless-N, Bluetooth, and Dell’s exclusive Wi-Fi Catcher™
• Built-in camera and digital array microphones to clearly see and flame the competition
• Dual headphone jacks, noise-isolating ear buds and a portable ExpressCard media remote

For more information about the XPS M1730 World of Warcraft Edition notebook PC, visit www.youtube.com/dellvlog.

First-Class Service for XPS Customers

All XPS notebook computers feature Dell’s first-class XPS service, which guarantees quick telephone access to Dell’s best home-computer technicians and a 15-month subscription to virus and spyware protection. XPS notebooks purchased from Dell also include one year of LoJack for Laptops ^[v] theft recovery service and one year of 10GB online storage and backup space with Dell DataSafe Online Backup. More information is at www.dell.com/firstclass.

How to help

I have always had a drive inside me to help other ppl. That is such a very broad thing tho when you have no direction. Growing up i use to have random ppl just stop and start talking to me about there problems. AT school, at the buss stop.. were ever. I was always an open person and very friendly to ppl ( my parents were not so thrilled about this ) and theas ppl would open up to me and tell me things that.. i had no answer for. Why would they tell me this? A total stranger… what am i suppos to do with this? But i never turned anyone away and always listened to them like they were a close friend. I may not have had anything to share, or advice to help them but when we parted they seemed.. free’er .. and i felt heavyier. I always walked away with a filling of taking some of there pain and then having to find my own way of dumping it.
There are times it has been hard but i always felt like i had helped them.. that my ability to..empathize.. to sympathizes.. that god gave me undetected skills to help. I have always been driven by my emotions. Every thing i fill is huge. i don’t have small opinions about things. I don’t love softly. I don’t get hurt just a little. I’m not just a little passionate about something. With most “negative” emotions i have learned that i must remove my self from a situation when its passable. I have to Vent the emotions. I will cry or storm or any means to “exhaust” it. I can not think right until i have moved past my emotion and i cant move past them until i have let them have there time. Once that has happened then my mind can and does work with logic….. but i am left emotionally drained an empty after any high intensity of emotions. I don’t understand why i work this way or how this works into what god has been waiting for me to do but i am tring so hard to find out now.

There is so much i want to do, to help. There are so many ppl to help, so much to do. There is never just.. here feed theas few ppl and you will have helped, It turns in to.. there are hundreds just here.. and more there.. and how can you feed them all? how can i do this! there is to much.. to many… my mind spirals on how large the problem is, and my emotions sour.. then crash.. and here i still sit not doing anything.

Think small, i know this is a key and no one can help them all. That god wants us to just live are life in love. To show it to all.. ( even those that will not show it back ) and to help were and when you can… but.. were am I support to help! Were do you start? What problem do you start with? Homeless will freeze this winter because they have no home. Children will go hungry because they are alone. So many ppl going with out… So many unloved tring to find it the wrong way.. untold numbers of teen mothers with no were to turn.. The children that are beaten by angry parents. The spouses beaten… Where do i start? How do you pick.. how do you get past the unbelievable need .. just with in your town.

And so i sit here.. wish i could help and not being able to pass my own emotional turmoil waiting desperately for someone to take my hand and put me were i am best used.. In the mean time how many ppl could i have helped or saved… Its just to much.

I help those i come into contact with, i try to have something for the needy i pass. The gloves off my hands for the veteran on the corner.. my last few dollar’s for someone hungry.. but it fills so small..

sigh, i am going to sit with one of the coordinators at church and talk with them. see if i can not get some direction. the closer i get to god the more drive i have and need to help.. i pray for direction, always for direction. I have faith he will get me back to the track he had invitioned for me, if i can just listen hard enough, be open enough.

sigh.. well ok there was my issue for today and why i blogged it.. well lol because it was here!

Hell freezing over?

LOL i stumbled this and had quite the laugh! you know who this student reminds me of? JON~ i see you over there working on your reports lol i bet you would turn in something like this isnt your daddy proud!

Thermodynamics of Hell

The following is an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid-term. The answer by one student was so profound” that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well.

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle’s Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following:

“First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let’s look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell.

With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle’s Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added. This gives two possibilities:

1) If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.

2) If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over. .

So which is it?

If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, “…it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you,” and take into account the fact that I still have not succeeded in having an affair with her, then #2 above cannot be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and will not freeze over.”

THIS STUDENT RECEIVED THE ONLY “A”.

there is just no tital fitting for this

when i seen this i was filled with so many diffrent emotions. I found my self crying and relizing that this mother will never be the same person she had been before she left for her tour. I know that no one that was not there will ever understand the changes and struggles that will forever be inside this mother.

We as people are driven by are raw emotions. Some so intense that you can fill it in every nerve of your body.. radiating in you trying to hard to find a way out. Are skin can not contain us at times and its as if we could just split open and all of those emotions would have a place to go. The three that come to mind first is love, anger and fear. What strong unbelievable world changing emotions. Every person that have made a diffrence i am sure was driven by one of those powerful emotions.

Have you ever been so in love that you could not possible explain it? never say enough i love yous never shower them with enough gifts.. never look at them enough, touch them enough. You would try to spill all of that love out to show them JUST how much there was but there was never enough ways to say it, to show it, to shout it to the world! your skin tingled, your spirit sores you want to share with the world … you soul is so full of joy and there is just no outlet, you fill trapped in your body! you cry, and cling to them just wishing you could push some of it into them, or pull them into you to be one. to be whole.

have you ever been so enraged that your head felt like it would split in two? your whole binge shaking from the inside out full of unspent energy. Waves of energy rushing threw you. you have to act, you have to strike out, you have to release this savage beast from your puny body or it will consume you! you are being eaten from the inside and you scream and you wale and you hit and you run… untell all that is left is a body exhausted and spend laying were ever it has landed.

i am sure that others have explained this better but this is what i can do… just this one picture filled me with so much that i had to let it out the only way i knew how. I fill sorrow for her for all that she has seen… done… and Indore .. i fill JOY! FOR as a mother i fill her unbelievable relief to hold her child and know you are home. I fill fear for i know were she has been and what it means… and overwhelming pride for all of the men, women, mothers, fathers, brother, sisters, sons and daughters that are still over there fighting so that you and i can sit here and read my rubbish.

THANK YOU TO ALL THE MEN AND WOMEN THAT HAVE FREELY GIVEN YOUR TIME AND POSSIBLE YOUR LIFE’S TO FIGHT FOR ME! TO FIGHT FOR THIS MOTHER! TO KEEP THE EVILS AT BAY! there is never enough you can say to those men and women that have sacrified what we could not, those that were braver then us!

YOU ARE MY HERO, ALL OF YOU.

may the lord keep you safe and in him presence at all times. Open your arms and fill his comfort, he is forever with you.

Well its happened

I have gotten sucked back in and hooked to world of warcraft. Back to the world of make believe and fantasy, Orcs , undead, long eared elfs.. and ….that naked troll on the mail box? doesn’t she ever leave?? Unsalisated spammers for gold and lvling! lol like i never left. I came back for my ..social outlet . I missed my guild fearsly. Kiss my murlock was my baby. I build it up and made it just the way i liked it for my online time. I Personally think i have some of the coolest wow addicts on Arothor.

My time away from it has given me some better perspective tho on my time management. You do have to be careful with this game it tends to grab you and SUCK you in to its grasp completely. Every one has there own trigger with it. My husband is a raiding freek and is just not happy if he is not in a run. I need my friends and my guild.

For those of you that don’t know.. more then just 13 yr olds love WOW. We have lots of couples and adults in KMM ( kiss my murlock ) Its still great to run in to some kid tho and have the shock radiate threw the computer that not only am i a GIRL i’m a MOM! LOL its great.

So i have not been posting much latly and want to get back to it. i do enjoy my blog a great deal but i think you may find a slight twist to it now LOL. i am sorry i can not help it. it tends to reflect what i am doing atm. You will always find odd combinations with me. I am getting involved in my church more and with my wow friends. All of that around the rug rats running around me keeping me in check with my time!